“If it doesn’t make you feel Fabulous: Don’t do it, don’t buy it, don’t keep it.” -unknown
Life is to damn short to worry about the naysayers. Happy are those who live life by the day, complain very little, and are thankful for the little things in life. The biggest compliment I ever received was when someone told me, ” You would never know all the shit you have been through by the smile on your face.” I don’t take this compliment lightly nor do I take for granted how I have remained positive in the face of many obstacles.
There have been many times I have questioned my fight and how to make it through another treatment, another doctors appointment or another test. Somedays I wonder how I will make it through the next 15 minutes. Most days I ignore the pain, ignore the fatigue, and ignore the worry. I have learned worry is a useless emotion and gets me no where other than dipping into my Ativan and burning sage to calm my nerves. I struggle with guilt, anxiety, and worthiness. I am human, as we all are. We all have our own demons we battle and our own insecurities.
How do I remain positive? There is no other option for me. I focus on what makes me feel fabulous. I put on makeup everyday including a full set of fake lashes to hide my puny chemo tattered ones, I listen to music that makes me feel joy, I meditate to calm my nerves, and I spend time with people who build me up. I also accept that everyday will not always be sunshine and unicorns. I live in reality but day dream about perfect days and manifest only the best life has to offer.
I am challenging all of you to do things that make you feel FABULOUS! Put on some 80’s music and have a party for one. Enjoy being with your Fabulous Self! Enjoy all that you are and all that you strive to be. We are not what has happened to us. It is your choice to find the beauty in the ugliest days. I promise you, one of the happiest moments in life comes when you find the courage let go of what you cannot change and realize how amazingly FABULOUS you are.
All my love my FABULOUS FIGHTERS,