“Some days are better, some days are worse. Look for the blessing instead of the curse. Be positive, stay strong, and get enough rest. You can’t do it all, but you can do your best.”-unknown
I read this quote today and it sparked this article. “When life knocks you down calmly get back up, smile and very politely say….You hit like a bitch!” When life and my new diagnosis knocked me on my ass last week I wasn’t sure how to handle any of it. Usually I am not at a loss for words or next steps to fighting but this threw me for a loop. Not only threw me, but my entire family. I mean lets be honest how could it not?
Everyone has dealt in their own way. Some staying quiet and internalizing a lot, some voicing opinions on what my next move of treatment should be, and others crying for me. I have been my own worst enemy. Not being true to the real me. I haven’t allowed myself to really cry and let all my feelings of anger and fear be washed away by the salty tears. Until today….Pain was looking at myself in the mirror with the tears streaming down my face, and begging myself to just hold on and be strong. Yes I fell apart. But I fell apart in a good way. By crying I was able to let my heart speak when my lips couldn’t. Now I can move forward and remember that the reason I started Fabulously Fighting was to share the real truth about Cancer but also how to pick yourself up and move forward.
Being strong doesn’t mean hiding your pain. It doesn’t mean hiding your struggle to save someones feelings. It doesn’t mean refusing to show sadness and vulnerability. Anything that prevents your healing and stifles your growth does not correspond with strength. Its ok to cry, its ok to not have the answers right now.
Today I am strong but I am tired. And thats ok.
No matter where you are in your journey don’t forget what it has taken to get you this far. You have survived 100% of your worst days. Remember you are a Fabulous Fighter, and we find beauty in the ugliest days.
All My love my Fabulous Fighters,