“There will be a few times in your life when all your instincts will tell you to do something, something that defies logic, upsets your plans, and may seem crazy to others. When that happens, you do it. Listen to your instincts and ignore everything else. Ignore logic, ignore the odds, ignore the complications and just go for it.” – Judith McNaughlt
For weeks now I have been questioning decisions that I have made and decisions that need to be made around my health. When I started on this journey eleven years ago, my first instincts were centered around holistic health and wellness. I got certified in raw food teachings, vegetarian and vegan cuisine, and learned all I could about holistic healing. As the years progressed and my diagnosis looked more grim I lost sight of everything I originally wanted for my health. I lost site of the healing properties of raw food, and meditation, and all of the holistic methods we researched and invested money in. Most importantly I had lost focus on how I originally wanted to heal my body.
This past Sunday changed how I see things. A month ago I received an invitation to a holistic Cancer seminar. A friend of mine invited Dave and I to attend. I put it on the back burner until Sunday morning when Facebook reminded me the event was that day. Sitting around the breakfast table I announced it was today and without hesitation Dave and my parents told me to get ready and go. I had no expectations of how I would feel or how much this seminar would answer so many questions I have been praying on.
The seminar was given by a woman who not only cured her brother of terminal cancer but her husband as well. This woman relied solely on food, essential oils and a healing method called Tong Ren. All of these methods I have heard of, tried in one way shape or form and have done research on but have never put them all together. Throughout my journey I wanted to understand how to use Holistic and natural methods to heal but it became overwhelming and daunting to say the least. I have tried various methods, but have always felt I was playing with pieces of the puzzle without seeing the whole picture. This woman showed me that picture, how to put the pieces together and gave me renewed hope and brought back the faith I needed to move forward and toward a natural way to cure myself.
I have been uneasy about the method of treatment for my brain tumor. There are many side effects which are harsh but because this treatment is fairly new some of the effects are unknown as every case is different. I have been worried, scared, and unsure if this treatment is the right treatment for me. I have meditated and prayed for answers and Sunday it seems as if the answers stared me in the face. After Dave and I left the seminar we spent hours talking about how we wanted to move forward. How to put all the knowledge together and where it fits into all of our medical decisions. We sat in silence for a while knowing we were both processing all of it. I finally spoke up when I had my AHA moment, It came to mind that I was unable to have this procedure the past few weeks because I have had the flu. They wouldn’t operate while I was sick. I asked Dave if this was the sign we have been waiting for? Is this our time to take all of my medical decisions on ourselves and take this journey in the way I always intended, naturally and holistically? It was a resounding yes.
SO here is where our new medical journey begins. We are jumping in with both feet. Dave and I will be working with this woman who has cured her brother and husband and learn all we can. We are not stopping the chemo just yet, as it has stopped the growth of the tumors. We want to make sure we are not hindering the process while we are learning how to transition. For right now we are opting out of surgery, but I will be scanned every couple of weeks to make sure nothing is growing.
We realize some of you may read this and think we are completely crazy. Some may read this and know this is the right thing for us. What I know, is I haven’t felt so sure about a medical decision like this in a long time. I do believe my prayers were answered and that everything happens for a reason. I also believe in divine intervention and believe Sunday was just that. I am trusting in the timing of my life, I am trusting in divine intervention, and I am trusting you will all have the faith with me.
I promise to bring you all on this journey with me through my writing. I will keep you all up to date with the approaches I am taking, the recipes, the oils, and even my scans. My hope is that one day I can help someone through their journey as this woman has with me. This will bring new meaning to the phrase pay it forward.
The universe has shaken me to awaken me, and for that I am eternally grateful.
Be well my Fabulous Fighters,