I have a hard time sitting still and taking care of myself first. For months I have been struggling with a lot of pain, especially in the last few weeks. When pain stops you dead in your tracks, you listen to your body and start finding ways to pace the race. “When you listen to your body when it whispers, you won’t have to hear it scream.” – Cherokee proverb
This past week has been filled with amazing opportunities and I have met some amazing people. From potential new author meetings and setting up my new company, Born of Fire Publishing to radio interviews, Skype interviews, an audition for singing the National Anthem for the Boston Bruins and evening charity events, we have been going non stop. Looking at my calendar Sunday night I was completely overwhelmed and wondered how I was going to reserve energy for not only work and my family, but also being out every night at events. I have had to make a plan of how I would conserve my energy and pace myself to make it through without collapsing come the weekend.
What I have I done this week to keep myself going? I started on Sunday by turning off all devices and taking a true, full day off from work. Secondly, I have focused on my nutrition. After years of chemotherapy induced nausea and vomiting and recent flare ups of my IBS, I don’t always feel hungry and therefore do not always eat regularly. Food is fuel, and without proper fuel, our bodies cannot function and perform properly. I have made a conscious effort this week to eat regular meals, 3 to 6 times a day, and have upped my plant based protein. I have maintained my daily routine of meditation, morning and night to center and ground myself. I have made it a point to listen to my body and address any pain at the start instead of waiting for it to get out of control.
Most importantly, I have remained present, in the moment, enjoying each experience, opportunity and individual I have met. I have focused on deep gratitude for what I have, for my family, for this life, and for all of the things that have brought me to this point. I have set my intentions for each interaction and experience, bringing positive energy into each situation and excitement for the opportunity to learn and grow in each moment.
Two weeks ago, I lay in bed all week, unable to move due to the pain caused by the tumor snuggling with a nerve in my head. Last week, I was proactive, knowing that I had to take care of myself to minimize the pain and time I would need to spend recovering. Each new experience, each success and each failure has brought with it the opportunity to learn how to better take care of myself. I often like to forget that I am still actively battling cancer, and therefor push myself to the point of utter exhaustion. I have learned that I must proactively schedule time to recoup or I will leave it off of my to do list. I am learning to accept that taking downtime does not lessen my warrior status.
Live in the moment and cherish each opportunity. Find the good in each situation. Love with all of your heart. Be kind to yourself. Treat yourself as you would like to be treated, do not just reserve that for the other people in your life.