I often get comments from people about how I choose to live my life while battling cancer. Some ask how I do it all? Some make comments about living my life to the fullest and taking chances, some even make snide and innapropriate comments that I don’t conventionally live as a cancer patient. Honesty I don’t even know what to say about that because the question becomes, how is a Cancer patient supposed to live her life? Am I suppose to look and act a certain way to have the label of “Cancer patient?” SO here is my take on life and I how I choose to live it.
“A comfort zone is a beautiful place, but nothing ever grows there.” To continue to grow and transform as a person I choose to live outside of my comfort zone. I truly believe this is what keeps me alive, and not just alive, but thriving. I choose to NOT let fear control me, I choose to say yes to things that push the envelope of excitement and flood my belly with butterflies. To live in the moments of life that push the envelope of my talents and even my weakness.
For so long I put my happiness on hold because I let fear and cancer control me. It wasn’t until I let go of the need to control every bit of my life, wanting to live to another day, instead of living for today. I found my inner lion and took control over living in moment to moment joy. I took the leap of faith believing in myself and the unstoppable force of thriving. I no longer put myself in a “cancer box” I decided to unwrap the joys of living.
This coming week I will live outside that comfort zone as I walk, host and even perform at New York Fashion week. I am nervous, I am fearing the unknown, but I am alive with excitement for this opportunity. I don’t know what to expect but I know that each moment I will live outside of where I feel comfortable. I know that the butterflies will flood my stomach, my palms will sweat, and my heart will beat faster. And at the end of it all I will have no regrets for the chances I took, the people I met, the friendships I will make, and the memories I will have.
Am I a conventional Cancer Patient? I am for me, and that’s all that matters. So let me give some advise before you tell others how they “should” act, look, or behave…. No one in this world is pure and perfect, yet we judge and form opinions as if we are. Casting your judgement on their decisions or life will end you alone in this world. So how about we judge less and live more. The words you speak can hurt, heal, motivate, inspire and even change the world. Never forget the responsibility you have over those words you speak and the opinions you form. We are all living life our own way, there is no road map or perfect way. I choose to live outside my comfort zone and whether I am here for 2 more days, 2 more years, or 2 more decades, I know I will have no regrets. So my Fabulous Fighters, live your life for you! Like the saying goes, “Do you boo.”
Wrapping you all in Fabulous Love and light,